Just wondering...

I've been working in five different kindergarten for about six months now and I've had stomach flu once and I've just recovered from a nasty cold I had for about four weeks. I've had fever about 3 times and been coughing for several weeks. But after this year I'm going to be a super-woman who can't get any diseases because I've had them all and mutations of them all so it's actually quite nice to be ill all the time... haha... Well this last week I've spent at home was quite nice and I've had time to read through Facebook thoroughly and see what all my friends are doing now. I've been "spying" on the people in my former school "Kattan" and I realized I miss the time there a lot. I would love to go back a few years in time when I didn't have to worry about anything... Or I would not have had to worry about anything. Still I worried about the tests, I worried about what people thought about me and I worried about my future. When I think about all that now it just seems ridiculous. Everything was done for me and I just didn't realize that back then. Now, when I've just moved away from home and I'm working I realize how lucky I was and if I could write a letter to myself five years ago, believe me, I would do anything to be able to do that. I would explain how lucky I am and make me believe I'm good just the way I am. I would ask myself to do my homework and stop worrying about what other people think and just do things in your own way. Be yourself - it's totally worth it! It's not always easy but in the end it will pay off.

While writing this I started to wonder what happened to all the people I used to know really good. I found something I wrote four years ago and according to that my best friend in school was "Lina" (not using her real name). Today Lina is living in another country and I have no idea when she moved there or what she is doing there. Somewhere along the road something changed and we lost touch with each other. We both found new friends but I can't help wondering what it would be like if we still were really good friends...

Now I'm wondering what happened to all the other people... Alyssa, Alex, Teagan, Irena... who were my classmates in primary school. L, who moved, M, who just slowly stopped answering and kind of disappeared, B, A, T and all my other friends abroad. What are they doing now and how are they? I think it would be really interesting to meet them all and hear what they are doing. But that would be really hard I guess...

Well, this was just another moment of overthinking. Now I've got some important things to do :)